"I want to have a child ..." For couples, a casual word can be a burden. I've been married for 5 years, but I haven't had sex for about 3 years now. When Maiyuki told me that she wanted to have a child, I wondered if I would be able to raise her properly if I had a child in such a situation because I had just gotten married and my work was still half full... I took it seriously. Even if I was approached many times to have sex, I continued to refuse. Just when I thought I hadn't approached recently, I saw Maiyuki's smartphone screen ... It was an exchange with a man who was cheating on her. This is the result of assuming that you understand the relationship of a husband and wife ... It's my fault. I was making him feel lonely. What Maiyuki wanted was love and warmth from me more than a child. I didn't even realize that I was keeping Maiyuki away for three years. Anger, frustration, and heartlessness at myself came over me. I like Maiyuki... I don't want to lose... I don't want to be robbed by another man! When I found out about my wife's affair, I changed. I tried making breakfast, asking her out on a date, talking a lot for the first time in a long time, laughing, apologizing for my past rudeness, and honestly talking about my current feelings. "I want to have sex with Maiyuki again" Sex for the first time in 3 years ... Nervousness, excitement, excitement ... I was enveloped in the atmosphere as if I had sex for the first time. After all, Maiyuki is the best. I'm useless without Maiyuki...